Mindfulness

"100 Years"

I'm 15 for a moment

Caught in between 10 and 20

And I'm just dreaming

Counting the ways to where you are

I'm 22 for a moment

And she feels better than ever

And we're on fire

Making our way back from Mars

15 there's still time for you

Time to buy and time to lose

15, there's never a wish better than this

When you only got a hundred years to live

I'm 33 for a moment

Still the man, but you see I'm a "they"

A kid on the way, babe.

A family on my mind

I'm 45 for a moment

The sea is high

And I'm heading into a crisis

Chasing the years of my life

15 there's still time for you

Time to buy and time to lose yourself

Within a morning star

15 I'm all right with you

15, there's never a wish better than this

When you only got a hundred years to live

Half time goes by

Suddenly you’re wise

Another blink of an eye

67 is gone

The sun is getting high

We're moving on...

I'm 99 for a moment

And dying for just another moment

And I'm just dreaming

Counting the ways to where you are

15 there's still time for you

22 I feel her too

33 you’re on your way

Every day's a new day...

Satu playlist di Spotify yg gw subscribe mainin lagu ini tiga hari yg lalu, alhasil entah kenapa liriknya terngiang terus ya tiga hari ini. Lagu ini sempat jadi masuk di playlist angkot gw waktu zaman-zaman kuliah dulu, disebut playlist angkot karena playlist nya selalu gw play waktu lg ngatuk-ngantuk diangkot pulang kuliah. Bareng dengan Daniel Powter Bad day, Jesse McCartney Leavin, PCD Stick with you, John Legend Ordinary people, Daniel Bedingfield If you are not the one dll.  Dari ini playlist gw waktu kuliah dulu keliatan kan kalau gw cukup kekinian dengan musik mancanegara pada zamannya ehem … Oke.. oke sebenarnya this is something about penggalan lirik nya si Five for fighting itu “Every day’s a new day”.

Pada saat-saat kelam dan dilanda kebosanan pada hari-hari diantara jadwal kemo setahun yg lalu pernah baca artikel psikologi tentang mindfulness, trus gw cari tahu lagi di youtube apa sih sebenarnya terminology ini, trus ada juga meditasi mindfulness lha gw kok gak ngerti-ngerti ya. Chemo brain, mood swing apa gw nya yg bego? Lol.  Tapi justru pelajaran tentang mindfulness itu gak gw dapet dari baca-baca artikel psikologi di internet. Teman-teman dekat gw, papa mama dan orang-orang yg baik yg selau support gw pada saat gw berada dititik terendah lah yang mengajarkan gw tentang selalu bersukur akan apa yg gw dapat “pada saat ini”.

Sedikit demi sedikit bisa gw lihat benang merahnya focus on the present, one step at the time Prabu you are not superman… a friends told me once. Apapun yg gw hadapi sekarang, ini cuma proses so dinikmati aja prosesnya, just focus on it and get it done we are going heading toward something anyway… kan katanya life is a journey. You may get bad or good experience during your journey right? So if life give you cancer, set your strategy… kick cancer’s butt, win the battle (and I did win yiay!) and will and move on.

So since every day is a new day I just want feel it, to enjoy it, become conscious and be part of what I’m dealing with at the moment. What happened in the past will not change the future, but what you at the moment and if you do it correctly it might give positive effect on the future. Right??? Yg setuju angkat tangan!