Looks like will not gonna get another break for the upcoming months if my
diagnosis come back positive with avascular osteonecrosis (AVN). Yep, that is
the news. It is not confirmed yet because I was just having a pelvis MRI
yesterday, hopefully next Tuesday I can already bring the result to my
pulmonary oncologist (which is currently already acting like my primary doctor
huff ). I’m quite sure that AVN will be the comeback positive because it fit
will all symptoms and my back medical background aside from this I’ve seen two
different orthopedic surgeons both of them suspected me with this condition.
My current attitude is pretty much like the first time I’m dealing with
my cancer diagnosis, again I’m feeling that roller coaster emotions during the
past doc appointments, taking pain killers, scans and some blood works. It is
like a déjà vu, these process brings me back to the memory of one year ago. The
first reactions when I first suspected myself I was scared to death, lots of
horrible thoughts in my mind. After researching after researching about the
condition (that I’ve suspected), seeing second opinions from other orthopedic surgeon
from other hospitals and waiting for MRI my attitude was just like: Okay tell
me what it is and let’s work on it.
MRI result will come back next Tuesday, on that same day I will also have
my six monthly thorax CT evaluation (hopping for clear scan result, so I will
continue with annual scan only for surveillance), I will meet my pulmonary oncologist
(doctor Sita) because the BPJS can’t schedule earlier then I will see doctor
Muki in different hospital (which is luckily just across the street of Siloam cancer
center). Good thing to see my tom see my pulmo first because I could discuss
what are the possible treatment options from her perspective (given she is my
primary doctor), any concerns given my seminoma history and soon. From my first
appointment with doctor Muki if it confirm AVN in this early stage he would
think about the hyperbaric oxygen therapy, this mean I will also have to ask
doctor’s Sita’s approval. I really don’t want the treatments for one condition
caused another sickness for my bod, I don’t want another side effects. I’m sick
and tired of being sick and tired, can't they just give me a long break, a very
long break from therapies, meds, doc appointments, scans and everything? A very
long break please.
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